Waiting....always when will Tuesday come?

Well, this coming Tuesday I will be headed for Scotland. It strange....the whole reason I came to Italy, was so that I could go to Scotland. Funny how your reason for doing something can sometimes get lost in the process of it all. Well, Italy has been fun, not always, but a lot of it. It has been boring a lot too. And I wish I could say I never wasted a moment of my time, but that would probably be the biggest lie of my life, so I won't say that.
But you know, its hard not to waste time when your by yourself day in and day out. If you have no one to talk to, no one to do something with, and nothing that you need to get done, what else do you have to do? It's hard. I guess I could have studied Italian alot, or picked up a new hobby, but by the time I realized that I was wasting all my time, it was really kind of too late. Not that it is ever too late to start doing something with yourself, but I'd gotten in such a habit, that, well, I didn't really know how to break it.
But I have started too, and I have better plans for Scotland. And none of them involve the computer, for which I am thankful. Thank goodness we won't have wireless internet. It is such a bad temptation and almost impossible to resist....for me anyway.
But today I delted all my stupid game apps that I had on Facebook. I knew that if I didn't delete them, I would continue to waste my time. And I am super glad I did. It feels like I've gotten rid of part of this big headache that I feel my life has been for the past....while.
Anyway, I think the next step will be....hm....perhaps taking up my drawing again, practicing voice, finding some really good books to read, and I mean good in that it has a moral value, not just exciting, and maybe if there is one, finding some sheet music and practicing the piano again. All these things I've really missed doing. I'm so sick of what I've let myself sink into. I know now that no matter what, I will never be like this again! Never!!!! So, that also means that if one day I ever do go to a country that doesn't speak English again, I know what I'm not going to do. But to be honest, I don't think I ever want to live anywhere else but the U.S.A.